True Love

I am happy that opinions and mindsets can be changed!

For a large portion of my life I have watched others in relationships and seen their joy. I have felt very much alone even when good friends surrounded me and an amazing family cared for me. I watched as couples held hands, kissed and displayed their love for each other. I watched with jealousy, I watched and became hurt.

Through study and words from others I changed the way I interpreted what I saw. Instead of feeling hurt I chose to change! If I wanted love in my life then I had to do something about it! What I decided from that moment was that I would not blame anyone else for my misery. The way we view and interpret something is our responsibility and ours alone. From this perspective I started a journey that led me to find something so precious and something I hold so sacred. I found and fell in love with Shelley.

Some may say our courtship has been short but I intend to continue it on into eternity. Some have asked how I know that I love Shelley. I know because of how I feel when I'm with her. I know because of how Shelley has helped me to grow. I know because of the joy Shelley brings to my life. I know because when I'm not with Shelley all I can do is think about her. I know because when I look into her eyes I feel peaceful, I feel as though I've always belonged with her. My words are not adequate enough to express how I feel.

I love the life I've been given and I am truely thankful for the blessing it is to have the opportunity to share my life with My One True Love, Shelley Woods.

Everything Connects

Have you ever felt as though every decision made, deed acted out, life direction changed has led you to this point in your life?

I feel a little overwhelmed with the knowledge that I am cared for and watched over. Right now I can honestly say that I am happy and that the future will be bright. There will be difficulties but there will also be accomplishments!

In all I am and for all I have I thank my God! Te Deum Laudamas (may have spelt that wrong)

Recently I've had a lot on my mind. I find myself burning out sometimes and it's not necessarily the situation I'm in or the problem I'm trying to solve, it's the amount of time i spend thinking about it. I'm going to stop worrying about things that i can't control and the things i can i will take it step by step.

Handed in an essay today which has released so much stress and worry. I'm looking forward to the Easter holidays although it's not going to be all idleness... work will be done along with the rest.

Shelley reminded my of something last night. She told me i don't quit. It hit me then that i really don't. Accomplishments have been many, big and small and it's all because i know in whom i trust. Whatever comes in my near or far future, i know i will keep going and will never give up! Oh i am excited! And I'm extremely happy!

What will the future bring?

Over the weekend I've had the opportunity to ponder on the possible futures i could have. I also have studied my Patriarchal Blessing. I know that i am cared for and i know that anything is possible.

It's funny because Saturday i was privileged to meet an important individual, one who i have come to respect and look upto. As i watched him speak to my family and interact with us i realised that i wanted to be like that... I want to be a man of the Spirit, a man who lives the gospel and loves it.

Whatever comes, i will look forward to it. My heart is set and my mind made up that i will become the best i can be. Life is great, the gospel is true and i am happy!

My direction is a little more clear. Here i come, watch out.

Loving the fact that i'll be spending a bit of quality time with my family! I'm sure you appreciate those you care about more so when you don't spend all day with them. Really, i don't think it should be like that and i regret now the time spent moaning to my familiy. I love them! I couldn't have asked for better parents or better siblings. I'm grateful for the short time i'm going to get with them and hope to use the time that i have to express that love.

Had an amazing night last night at institute. I learnt something that was needful and will be rewarding for my future. The promptings of the Spirit are always present but we sometimes don't hear or understand because we're not spiritually prepared for them. Heavenly Father is always trying to direct us to greater happiness but do we spend the time listening for that direction?

In my busy life with my different responsibilities i have made a reslove to listen more and find the time away from the world... the time to receive from on high... the time to be with my Father in Heaven.

Balance

I am constantly aware of the fact that i have an addiction... I cannot say no! I find myself tired most of the day and when i sleep i usually wake every now and again to my subconscious mind trying to solve a problem. I don't wish to complain or whine but to just express...

I have no idea how the Lord does it but my body is renewed each day, i am actually thankful that i go to bed worn out because i know i've done something good that day. However, we are asked and encouraged to create balance in our lives. This week i intend to focus on uni work. I only hope that the time i spend away from other duties, some more enjoyable, will be put to good use and will reward me with fruit. Really hoping time with another is not affected too much. Shelley, i miss you already...

Hero

I was called a hero today. I don't glorify in praise but it's nice to know sometimes that you have a positive affect upon peoples lives.

I think about the heroes in my life and i'm reminded of two from the Book of Mormon.

Ammon, what an example of service. He obeyed with exactness! I know that we are blessed with the opportunity in this life to serve others and what joy it brings. I'm grateful for Ammon, he's my hero.

Captain Moroni, what an example of love. He loved the Lord, the gospel and his people. He did not delight in bloodshed but would fight for the cause of right. We all have battles to fight, within our time it is the battle for rights and morals, it's the battle for the truth to be spread and taught to all. I'm grateful for Captain Moroni, he's my hero.

Mostly I'm grateful for my Saviour. What greater hero then the Son of God who suffered, bled and died to give us life. He lives! Through His life we can be made perfect. The Atonement is real and i can't express how thankful i am for it.